losing a friend

ever had the feeling where you and someone you used to be very close with started drifting apart? someone you used to see everyday. someone you used to swap stories with. someone you shared your life with. someone you depended on when times got tough. someone you trusted your entire being with. you could see the countdown towards the end of your friendship. as if the year was about to end. 3.. 2.. 1..

its more of a "see you later" than a "goodbye", really. its not the end of the world for the two of you. just the end of an era accoridng to Joey. you'll never get the closeness back. but you'll still have the friendship. the second-hand friendship. you had a great frienship then, but now its something else. something lesser. sure, you'll say "Hi!" and you'll text quotes and jokes, and an occasional "musta?ü" but you will never have the same connection back. you will never be on the exact same page again. like reading a choose-your-own-adventure book, you turned to page 23 while your friend flipped to page 32. weird metaphor, i know.

where did i go wrong? i lost a friend.

yan, song line na lang. is there an upside to losing a friend? the closest i can think of is finding a new one. but then again, i would rather be friends with a few people over a long period of time than be friends with various people on short-term bases. second-hand friendship would be number one in my top ten list of things to avoid. do everything you can to keep the friendship.

so this is my new year post. i raise my glass to those who used to be my close friends, those who still are, and those who are about to be.. here's to you and to second-hand friendship.