down and out

i feel down. i don't even know if that is a valid sentence, because i haven't heard people say they feel up, but i feel down. and the problem is, i don't know why. and that puts me down even more. i've always been the cheery one in a group. the one who makes everyone else smile and laugh. but tonight i'm down. i don't know if tomorrow i'll be back to normal. it's weird how despite everything great that's been happening to me, despite all the good things that are about to come, despite having nothing much to do during the day, i feel tired and burned out.

i feel like giving up. but there is nothing to give up. this is a dilemma not many of you have encountered. you may sarcastically think "oh wow, this guy has such a big problem." but seriously, this is quite a situation i find myself in.

tonight, i feel down. and i don't know why.

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putang ina mo ka.

woops hala

turns out, our trip to Nigeria is on hold. due to some things (which i am thinking are political conflicts), the company decided to impose a temporary Travel Ban to Nigeria. hahaha. we'll have to wait and see what our Team Leader's decision would be. me and my partner hope that he assigns us to a different country. hahaha.

on a different note, my current LSS is thunder by boys like girls. i'm studying the chords of its acoustic version. kind of getting the hang of it.

"yooooouuuur eeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyeeeeeeesssss... are the brightest of all the colors..."

experience is the best teacher

so it looks like i am going to Nigeria in a month's time. as of now my tentative departure is on the 6th of September, but it may be moved to the 30th of August. i will be there for on-site support to one of the company's upstream businesses. i will be there for 28 days, then be back here for 28 days again. after that i'll be returning to Nigeria for another 28 days. this rotation will happen three consecutive times. my partner, who is about a year old in the company, will be joining me. so this'll probably be part of my training, or rather the culmination of it. experience is, after all, the greatest teacher.

this is really a great opportunity for me. but two things scare me: (1) i will be coming straight off my training. as in my training will start july 31 and end September 5. and the training could also be cut short to last until August 29 only so that i could leave on the 30th. (2) i've been hearing strange things about Nigeria. well, you can look it up for yourself. but i guess the company won't send its employees to unsafe regions. especially if 'safety' is our number one priority.

oh well, come what may. if anything, i'll learn a lot about so many things on this trip. and since i'll be going there three times, i'll have the opportunity to adjust and better myself.

why so serious?

waaaah. ang gandaaaaa.

"the night is darkest just before the dawn... the dawn is coming."

"the dark knight" is the best movie i have seen this year. the best 'batman' film of all time.

heath ledger made this movie awesome. his portrayal of the joker is simply outstanding. lalong nakapanghihinayang na namatay na siya. it looked like christian bale took a backseat to heath ledger's performance, much like michael keaton when jack nicholson played 'the joker'. the movie really did well in exploring the background of each character. and it made me realize how much interesting the rivalry of batman and joker is. the realm of hero-villain was tackled really really well by the movie.

all i can say is that this movie is a must watch. even for non-batman fans.

2nd

i won second place at the company's billiards tournament. it was a race to 5 finals, and the final score was 5-4. yeah, i was that close. but the better player really won. i'm happy to be second! yey =)

i gave my prize, a billiard stick, to the fourth placer. she was nice, and she really wanted to have a stick of her own. so i gave her the stick i won. i wouldn't be able to use it anyway, it was too light for me. i'd rather buy my own. and i think i will buy one soon. hala i think i'm addicted to money. i keep on spending and spending. must save up. must save up.

me thinks we have a future

ateneo won about 8 minutes ago. the first game against la salle, the first game of the season. this bodes well for our blue eagles. could this be our year? maybe, maybe not. but regardless of this season's outcome, i think the ateneo blue eagles will extend their 9 year streak of final four stints and maybe capture a few championships along the way. why?

because ryan buenafe could very well be our lebron james.

you can quote me on that. after seeing him on his UAAP debut (as a starting forward, mind you) i am convinced that he is the type of player you build teams around. he's tall, lean and versatile. he can dribble the ball down the court, he can drive right pass you, he can hang in mid-air and he can either pass the ball or finish it on his own. much like lebron, buenafe enters the league with little skill on shooting the ball from the perimeter. but that can be improved and worked on by the ateneo basketball system. the main difference is that when james entered the NBA, he can already defend. too bad i couldn't say the same thing about the NCAA Juniors Basketball MVP last year. but again, he has four more years to improve on his game.

ateneo boasts of three other prized rookies as well: Chang Kai Shek standout justin chua, San Beda Red Cub nico salva, and vincent burke, a former teammate of Kirk Long from Faith Academy.

the only bad news about this season is that de la salle university now has Zobel's joshua webb, the UAAP Juniors Basketball MVP last year (see how he is the green to buenafe's blue?) he has the makings of a mac cardona: athletic, good defensive player, can handle and shoot the ball, can mess with his opponents head, and most of all, cocky. add a little more height and he could be a rico maierhoffer in the making.

expect buenafe-vs.-webb type of games soon. this will surely add more spice to the already flavorful ateneo-la salle rivalry.

what the heck?

Heck is where people go who don't believe in Gosh.

i came across that while reading a Reader's Digest issue this morning. the brilliance of the phrase is simply amazing, so i decided to post it here.

i also read about the interesting reason behind the usage of the phrase "hands down". apparently, back in the day, the term "hands down" came from horse racing. a horse jockey usually slaps his horse to make it run faster. whenever a horse jockey is assured of the win, like if he is a mile away from his opponents, then the horse jockey would usually just keep his "hands down" and just cross the finish line in style. [ he's going to win hands down ] so now, when the term "hands down" is used, it is meant to say that something/someone is assured of something [ that was the best date i've ever had, hands down ]

spent the evening with fackers (my college barkada) for rj and yvette's birthday treat at Friuli. yum yum. then we stayed at Bo's Coffee along katipunan. it was fun to be there with them again. it triggered memories. fun memories. our streak of seeing each other at least once a month continues. yey.

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i am totally missing her. jesus christ man, get a hold of yourself (somewhere an officemate of mine is laughing). have i said too much? did i come on too strong? or are you just seriously busy? gaaaah. ako naman sana ang mamiss mo, para maiba naman.

Weak/Sana Kahit Minsan: *i get so.. bakit ikaw ang nais na matanaw nitong mga mata..?*