down and out

i feel down. i don't even know if that is a valid sentence, because i haven't heard people say they feel up, but i feel down. and the problem is, i don't know why. and that puts me down even more. i've always been the cheery one in a group. the one who makes everyone else smile and laugh. but tonight i'm down. i don't know if tomorrow i'll be back to normal. it's weird how despite everything great that's been happening to me, despite all the good things that are about to come, despite having nothing much to do during the day, i feel tired and burned out.

i feel like giving up. but there is nothing to give up. this is a dilemma not many of you have encountered. you may sarcastically think "oh wow, this guy has such a big problem." but seriously, this is quite a situation i find myself in.

tonight, i feel down. and i don't know why.